Hvt . . T.T

Malam ini seharusnya jadi malam yang mengasyikkan buat saya dan teman-teman saya.
Tapi, sayangnya hal itu enggak terwujud.
gara-garanya:

1. Saya udah mengira kalau endingnya bakalan jadi kayak gini
2. Saya udah mencoba menasihati sang tersangka, tapi enggak digubris, apalagi diturutin hvt


gara-gara semua itu, saya udah males buat ngapa-ngapain
apalagi janji saya pada seseorang jadi berantakan !
dan yang paling enggak enakin, saya terpaksa membuat suasana antara saya dengan seorang cowok (tokoh utama di "hmm ? yes or no ?"), jadi kurang enak gara-gara keBTan saya !

ARGH ! DAMN !
>.<

hhmm ? yes or no ?

Udah 3 bulan sejak saya putus dengan sorang cowok yang dulunya juga sahabat saya. Hmm, menyakitkan memang, awalnya. Terlebih si terdakwa itu memnutuskan saya dengan cara yang enggak logis banget dan tanpa alasan yang jelas. Huh, cowok apaan tuh ?
Saya memang sempat jadi pribadi yang enggak banget. Saya kembali menjadi pribadi seperti sekitar 2 tahun yang lalu: pendiam, sinis, hidup enggan mati tak mau. Saya sampai miris sendiri ngebayangin gimana berdukanya sahabat-sahabat saya melihat keadaan saya waktu itu yang ngenes.

Udah 3 bulan juga, sejak saya putus, beberapa hari kemudian, saya malah kenalan dengan seorang cowok yang (versi sahabat saya) naksir sama saya. Tapi, kebenarannya juga saya enggak tahu pasti.
Yang jelas setelah 2,5 bulan saya cama 'bla bla bla' sama dia, sekarang 'bla bla bla' nya jadi lebih terasa beda. hoho. Bahkan sahabat-sahabat saya sering godain saya sama dia. Dan anehnya, SAYA JADI SALTING !
haduhh... saya jadi bingung, Apa saya udah pindah hati ke dia ya ?
yang jelas sih, si mantan itu udah terlupakan lamaaaa hahahahaha

(di)Beda(kan) Itu Menyakitkan (Saya vs Iggy)

KENAPA di dunia ini terjadi pembedaan antara cewek dan cowok?

PERSETAN dengan segala basa-basi mengenai emansipasi wanita! Enggak usah jauh-jauh. Contohnya udah ada dari orang terdekat saya. Eh, maksud saya orang yang seharusnya dekat dengan saya yang tinggal satu atap dengan saya.

Enggak ada satupun atau bahkan setengah atau mungkin seperempat dari mereka yang peduli sama saya. Bahkan mengenai masa depan saya. Bayangkan saja, saya cuma mau pergi untuk cari informasi tentang perguruan tinggi, tapi karena mungkin mereka memang enggak pingin saya jadi orang pintar dan berhasil sesuai dengan kemampuan saya, jadi mereka memutuskan untuk menghalangi jalan saya dan dengan cara yang sebenarnya terang-terangan tapi dibuat seperti terselubung,

CUIH! Memangnya saya sebodoh itu bias ditipu? Saya malah lebih pintar dan ahli daripada mereka soal kejiwaan dan perasaan. Tahu apa mereka? Terlebih lagi musuh saya yang sebenarnya tidak pernah mau saya jadikan musuh. Sebut saja IGGY.

Day of Ones

Hari ini , Jum'at 13 November 2009

iSOCK (cuma tiga perempatnya sih ) bkumpul d subha foodcourt, gale buat makan-makan bareng :D

aku senang banget soalnya jarang banget kita bisa kayak begini

moga-moga aja habis ini,

kita bisa makin sering jalan-jalan dan makan-makan bareng

haha :D

ayoo ditutup ama ngepump ! xD

Better Future?

Udah setahun sejak kelas saya (iSOCK) menjalani masa-masa belajar bersama.
Selama setahun itu pun, enggak pernah kami bisa 100 % klop.
Bahkan yang cewek-cewek terbagi jadi 2 kubu: Kubu saya, dan kubu lainnya
hvt.. sesuatu yg menyedihkan banget

belum lagi yang cowok terbagi jadi entah berapa kubu
mana pada nyebelin, gak aturan !

tapi sekarang...
setelah menghilangnya beberapa ekor manusia yang notabene oknum kelas, menghilang ...
MIRACLES HAPPEN !
kelas saya sekarang jadi lebih baik !
rukunlah paling enggak..

hampir tiap hari, yang cewek-cewek ke mal terdekat dari sekolah terus nge pump,,
sama anak-anak cowok juga udah enggak se-nyebelin dulu
haaa senang banget !
moga-moga ini terus berlanjut dan bisa menjadi hal yang baik buat iSOCK !
:D

Wat I Glad n I Regret (part 2: A Great City Called Yogyakarta)

There are some things about living in Yogyakarta that I should be glad and what I regret.

I’m glad:
1. Yes, I do have a new life. I can do everything that I want to do. No more being behind the mask. It’s the real me :D
2. I finally found what it’s called ‘Best friends’! I really love you, guys!♥
3. I’ve learnt what it’s called a ‘Sacrifice of Love’ and I got all of that from someone I fell for. (I thought) It was worth to fight for. There were some nice and sweet unforgettable memories and so valuable in my life.
4. I have a lotta unexpected but amazing experiences. (In this 1 year, compared with 7 years living in Surabaya, nothing great happen there) xD
5. Finally, I can use and improve my skills! :D
6. I am ‘somebody’ now. I could be useful for many people. I could help a lotta people with what I have. And that feels really great.
7. This city really does have all I want : (All) Arts, Nature, Cultures, all-level citizens (no extreme differences between one and others), and more freedom in life.
8. Everyone care, respect, and regards one another . This is what I’ve been looking for in my life about a promising place.
9. I’ve grow better than ever and I feel better than ever.

I regret:
1. Separated from someone that I really love, wasn’t an easy thing to get through (just so you know ) . And because of I moved here, I was blamed by him.
(well, HEY! Look at yourself! What’ve you done to me so I left you? Open up your eyes!)
2. Because of a Long Distance, I gotta let him go. May be forever? IDK, but I know it’s the best way for both of us. I don’t wanna hurt him too by this distance. Nothing about love needs to be forced.
3. I still can’t get over him , and that ruined my dailies. T.T
4. Why is it so hard to find a new love? But I believe I'll find one someday...

Wat I’m Glad n I Regret (part 1: A City Called Surabaya)

There are 2 things about Surabaya dat I should be glad and what I regret.
First, when I live there,
And Second, when I left.

Lived in Surabaya
I’m glad that:
1. I could learn what it’s called a‘Real Love’, ‘First Love’, and ‘Sacrifice of Love’ . I had my first love.
2. I could see the damned side of the 2nd biggest city in Indonesia
3. I could learn which ones that are called a ‘Real Friend’, ‘Best friend’, and ‘Fake Friends’
4. I had great course friends and elementary pals
5. I had some good memories with my elementary pals and some unforgettable moments in English course.

I regret:
1. I felt the pain of loving someone . I thought he’s my first love , but thank God I was wrong. I couldn’t have him on that time, and I never could get over it (but I believe someday I will :) ).
2. Sunday, June 29, 2008 . Sometimes and somehow, I wish there’s nothing special happened on that day, so I won’t feel any worse pain caused by love by now.
3. I couldn’t find a real friend. Only few people and that’s really hard to find at that time.
4. I was nobody It’s like, I don’t belong there and I couldn’t do anything to be the real me. That’s painful.
5. I had nobody . Real friends were so hard to find. Fake friends and people surrounded me . I had a best friend whom I love, but he couldn’t keep his own promise. So shame.
6. Betrayed by someone I thought she was my friend and she destroyed all my dreams.
7. There were much more nightmares and bad memories than ever.

Left Surabaya
I’m glad that:
1. I started a new life, and got away from all those fuckin bad fortunes I got.
2. I (thought I) could erase all those painful memories bout my first love.
3. I know I will have a better life and fortunes
4. I could be who I am and who I wanna be. Just like the original soundtrack of “Camp Rock” which sung by Demi Lovato, “This Is Me”. Or Kelly Clarkson's. Breakaway and break free.
5. I’ll live in a city which has all that I want : (All) Arts, Nature, Cultures, all-level citizens (no extreme differences between one and others), more freedom in life
6. I could be someone new and have what I always dream.
7. Run away from fake happy and “all-fine” conditions with fake people and friends
8. I wanna search for a new life of love.

I regret:
1. Sunday, June 29 2008 . I met someone that was too little too late to came back into my life.
2. I had to separate with some of my real friends.
3. I gotta leave someone that I fell for.
4. Unexpectedly, he came back into my life. It made the situation complicated.
5. I became to feel such hatred of Surabaya.