Wat I’m Glad n I Regret (part 1: A City Called Surabaya)

There are 2 things about Surabaya dat I should be glad and what I regret.
First, when I live there,
And Second, when I left.

Lived in Surabaya
I’m glad that:
1. I could learn what it’s called a‘Real Love’, ‘First Love’, and ‘Sacrifice of Love’ . I had my first love.
2. I could see the damned side of the 2nd biggest city in Indonesia
3. I could learn which ones that are called a ‘Real Friend’, ‘Best friend’, and ‘Fake Friends’
4. I had great course friends and elementary pals
5. I had some good memories with my elementary pals and some unforgettable moments in English course.

I regret:
1. I felt the pain of loving someone . I thought he’s my first love , but thank God I was wrong. I couldn’t have him on that time, and I never could get over it (but I believe someday I will :) ).
2. Sunday, June 29, 2008 . Sometimes and somehow, I wish there’s nothing special happened on that day, so I won’t feel any worse pain caused by love by now.
3. I couldn’t find a real friend. Only few people and that’s really hard to find at that time.
4. I was nobody It’s like, I don’t belong there and I couldn’t do anything to be the real me. That’s painful.
5. I had nobody . Real friends were so hard to find. Fake friends and people surrounded me . I had a best friend whom I love, but he couldn’t keep his own promise. So shame.
6. Betrayed by someone I thought she was my friend and she destroyed all my dreams.
7. There were much more nightmares and bad memories than ever.

Left Surabaya
I’m glad that:
1. I started a new life, and got away from all those fuckin bad fortunes I got.
2. I (thought I) could erase all those painful memories bout my first love.
3. I know I will have a better life and fortunes
4. I could be who I am and who I wanna be. Just like the original soundtrack of “Camp Rock” which sung by Demi Lovato, “This Is Me”. Or Kelly Clarkson's. Breakaway and break free.
5. I’ll live in a city which has all that I want : (All) Arts, Nature, Cultures, all-level citizens (no extreme differences between one and others), more freedom in life
6. I could be someone new and have what I always dream.
7. Run away from fake happy and “all-fine” conditions with fake people and friends
8. I wanna search for a new life of love.

I regret:
1. Sunday, June 29 2008 . I met someone that was too little too late to came back into my life.
2. I had to separate with some of my real friends.
3. I gotta leave someone that I fell for.
4. Unexpectedly, he came back into my life. It made the situation complicated.
5. I became to feel such hatred of Surabaya.